Thursday, April 30, 2009

We Cannot Cling to the Old Dreams Anymore

And who would want to? When something much more exciting awaits.

Au Hasard Balthazar (1966)

Thursday, April 23, 2009

Following the Ring

find it and keep it? or let it go?

Monday, April 20, 2009

An Eye for Adventure, A Soul for Selling.

Being captured by hunger was such a wonderful liberation. I am desperate for the starvation to return. I will have a firm grip though it is impossible to keep the cold out, perhaps it is time we welcome it, and tear the insulation out from walls. And forget our tendencies toward fair weather friendship.



Sunday, April 19, 2009

Tu No Vas a Cambiar mi Ahora


Mira la forma

Cannot Take Aim with a Mind that Wanders

We trained wild animals and gave them emerald neck collars. And made the Mexico vs. Canada argument. The Equator has become passion's birthplace. The farther I stray from its origins the greater the risk of suffering a lack of oxygen. Haven't you ever wondered why there are more juke boxes in Mexico?

Thursday, April 16, 2009

Wiggly World


because I've got a nickel, you've got a dime, I'd like to get to know you but I haven't got the time.

Tuesday, April 14, 2009

Sunday, April 12, 2009

The Warranty Will not Suffice

It seems I have vivid memories of a time when birds were commonly used as a means for the delivery of messages. A dove flew into my open window last night. I know very little about various species of birds, but I have gathered enough to determine with relative certainty that it was in fact a dove. She must have come while I was sleeping, and was patient enough to wait for my alarm. and her arrival was all in good timing. Some messages require a bit more discretion than the general mail will allow, and certainly every person has at least one message to deliver with such care. I happen to be no exception.
So without further adieu my dearest pigeon:

There is a place in each life for Amusement.
It grows like weeds in the Parks and Playgrounds of the mind.
A casual threat to Diligence, a fleecy comrade to Foolishness.
But, none with a more felicitous progeny: the white courtyard wedding, lemonade and white lace gloves.
but when you have grown tired of considering life's side shows
Please restore my confidence: in Amusement's magnetic candor.
At the least remember, what you break, you buy.


Please make haste in your delivery darling dove, the issue is pressing.

Drawing by Ariel Pink

It's Time to Grow Up

There was an old person whose habits,
Induced him to feed upon rabbits;
When he'd eaten eighteen,
He turned perfectly green,
Upon which he relinquished those habits.

Edward Lear

Friday, April 10, 2009

Common Stock, We Work Around the Clock

"yet I am ruled by my emotions, though I murder them at birth... That I, the civilized, scrupulous sportsman, was behaving like an ice-cream merchant with a knife"- Rogue Male, Geoffrey Household

And all of the suspense was a hoax. Because it turns out ghosts don't sneak up on people.

Anna Atkins, Photographs of British Algae: Cyanotype Impressions. (1799-1871)




digital collection by: NYPL

Wednesday, April 8, 2009

A Rectangle Becomes A Person

And pride makes us drag our bodies on the ground, a firm act of defiance against the useless limbs; through fields and into living rooms, to drink tea in dirt stained dresses. We sit in silence, the guests evade stony glances. Words are secondary. Instead we send Mescalero smoke signals and offer no more apologies.


H. C. Andersen Medusa, Agnete Lind Picture Book, (1854).

Tuesday, April 7, 2009

Circumnutation: Pursuing the Sun

Bloomwilt, bloomwilt, bloom
The devil will find work for idle hands to do.


Saturday, April 4, 2009

Heart Reign Hand-off

There is no telling which is deserving of the Iron burden.
If I took care to study the options delicately, it would be clear that both parties were guilty of infractions. I would like to be the hand to wield the Chinese key; the deliverance from a dark heavy fate. If the key is lost, there is only to fashion its likeness. Two wear a mask of iron, neither born to be so smooth and cold, neither proud of their results. I ask only to be forgiven for my clumsy fingers; the unintended contribution to your grief.


Stills: The Man in the Iron Mask (1939)

Friday, April 3, 2009

Garden of Orchids

Chapter One: The Genesis of a World
"Two Suns met. What had been, ceased; what was to be, arose. Fatal to both progenitors, the event dated a stupendous cosmic birth"-Mars as the Abode of Life Percival Lowell (1908).

So ends the week of collisions: Head with concrete, teeth with tools, dark bodies with dead suns, text and screen.

Der Orchideengarten (1919-1921).

Body of Yogurt

Primus by Osip Mandelshtam

"I'm raw and uneducated,
it's easy for me to become yogurt,"
said the raw milk
to the boiled.

But the boiled
answers tenderly,
"I'm no mollycoddle,
I have skin!"


Illustration by Mstilav Dobuzhinsky (1875 - 1957).

Thursday, April 2, 2009

They Draw You Out

With caution, I enter a room, from ceiling to floor, filled with glass globes. I approach the globes, organized neatly on shelves, in some sort of catalogue. Careful inspection reveals that the glass encasements contain memories. Reminiscence most private and also ones favorably shared. I see my 6th birthday party, when my Aunt gave me the glittery rainbow butterfly t shirt, and our trip to the park when I skinned my knee. I see me defending my sister from the top of the metal slide as a set of bullies taunts us from below. I continue down the shelves and come upon a globe of my first day at a new school, next to it, the day I got the stomach flu and threw up on my desk. Further along my goodbyes to my best 3rd grade friends, as I prepared for yet another new school.

The glass encasements continue and each memory is increasingly removed from its predecessor. I am on the steps of my first apartment complex, crying for the loss of a favored necklace from a late dear relative. At the graduation that would have been my own, staring into the faces of those I once knew well, but have grown distant. To a sterile room with desks and nervous young BFA hopefuls. In a tiny attic room reorganizing new purchases, and musing over the train ride, the bridge and the damp smell around us. In the side chapel of a church centuries old: to encounter a glass coffin, where a withered knight lays adorned with strings of delicate flowers, where I lost my breath once.

They come in much quicker succession. A successful snow dance. A silly movie with friends. A snowball fight with children much younger than myself on the way to school. Hiding out in a shed for one cold night. The view from the top of a mountain. In a tree house watching a meteor shower.

The hallway is seemingly endless, I cannot anticipate its contents.

Three globes that stand out near each other contain a sunny day on a swing set with Popsicles, A rare opportunity, and a giant tree dressed up like a monster. Not too far past them is a summer vacation; The Climax to a novel.

Not every glass holds a treasure, some are moments of boredom, and others I won't speak of for fear of tears. As I look upon the memories, each is a homage to the persons invloved, a private time, or at the very least a celebration for the brevity of that moment.



Distillation Series: Thomas Doyle, Escape/Scatter (2006).

Close up:
"Like black boxes bobbing in the flotsam, these works wait for discovery, each an indelible record of human memory."

Wednesday, April 1, 2009

Will Not Wrestle Doves

PHILIP GUSTON:

"There is something ridiculous and miserly in the myth we inherit from abstract art. That painting is autonomous, pure and for itself, therefore we habitually analyze its ingredients and define its limits. But painting is 'impure'. It is the adjustment of 'impurities' which forces its continuity. We are image-makers and image-ridden. There are no wiggly or straight lines..."

We all need to be free. There is something overwhelming about the attempt to conquer something you previously viewed as The Desirable, to turn things up on the side like that is the task of only the seekers of loneliness. And yet there remains the reality that it just needs to be carried out.

Just as a painter becomes weary of the repetitiveness of style, so also do I see my own inhumanity at an inability towards the most basic feelings of empathy. Philip Guston had to become a cartoon to challenge confinement. What will you and I become?

Philip Guston, ‘Untitled (Cherries)’ (1980).
Philip Guston, 'Painting, Smoking, Eating' (1973)

Philip Guston, 'Multiplied' (1972).

There Are Also Black Sails

This morning I journeyed with a friend deep into the realm of a most fierce, but utterly delicate self-proclaimed monster. He, in his demonic severity, proclaimed his love for a feathery moth with an acute aversion to light. The monster called out to the moth, but the moth of course, was unable to speak, due to her shy nature. And so they continued to live together but apart, in an endless labyrinth of misconception.


"Insatiable Minotaur! My Dreams chafe against his horns... A king’s ultimate responsibility is to be sovereign of his own being. And yet, it’s impossible!"-Julio Cortázar

Gustave Doré, 'Minos' (1857).